It's Been Long.

Just when I thought of cleaning my not-so-messy room, I stumbled upon several artifacts left forgotten inside my 20 kg luggage behind the door. For the past few years, my mental health is not looking good and I tried to cheer up here and there and I know depression is a mental illness and it should not be labelled about being a 'normal' sadness, which is why unless someone is truly being diagnosed by a professional, what I feel now is just a episode of sadness.

The things I found are all those from my teenager's life, most are from my high school time. I admit that my teenage life was one of the hardest I have been. Household problem, getting betrayed and feeling alone in a crowded bunch was normal situation to me. It got better when I was in the working force, but not for long. It's like I attracted hated bunch out of nowhere without me intended. 

It's been more than a month since I quit my job and honestly I don't have the energy to think about getting a new one. I told my family and friends I will find one but what I am doing now is just running from the reality. I just want to shut down and not thinking of anything. Last time I can blame it on my stressful job and said that was the reason of why I am feeling like this. But now.. I can't say the same. 

Over the years, I lost my passion of writing and reading but now I am trying to read again and it is looking good. Most of them are web novels though. And my paperback novels are all being stored away because picking a book and reading it takes away my energy too much. I opened one page and read one line and I closed the book back. 

Whatever I am doing right now, I do recognized it as running away from the reality. I don't even have energy to get out of my house unless it is truly necessary. Meeting people and taking with them drained my energy faster than a running water. Although there are a few people I called friends, I have limited time in being a social butterfly.

And now when I am getting older, I can admit when people said 'your tear duct loosen when you are older'. Even looking at those things from high school, made me said, 'What am I doing with my life?'

Aloe Vera Gel!

Heya~~~

Several weeks ago I was bitten with something, but I didn't know what the hell was the cause. And then I told my brother and he said, "Bedbug." Huh, finally this kind of thing datang jugak kat aku. So, I searched the net, looking for some remedy that can ease my itchiness.

And here, I found it. I was thinking that home remedy is quite nice, save duit jugak, but then it is a hassle to go out of the room in the middle of the night just to mix sodium bicarbonate with water and sapu kat badan ak yg kne gigit plak. So, the right choice is to buy aloe vera gel that has a soothing effect.

Hehe... Sume nk senang kan~~~ 

But I think... type ni x sesuai ngn ape yg ak alami. Hmph, jadilah~~~

A Natural Detoxifying Juice

Heya~~~

Remember what I said about apple and celery combi? So here the not-so-evidence website

Oh, and you can add carrot (click here) also :D

hmmm..maybe a small spoon of honey to sweeten it a bit? Up to you la~~~

Starting Back~~~

Heya!!

I decided to go for a diet since April 2012 and I have lost around 15kg. Unfortunately, I gained back the 5kg that I have lost and now, it seemed that my hard work from before was in vain. Since then, I was not in the mood for a diet but I still watched what I eat, although not that thorough.

A few weeks ago, one of my friends (the few I called friends), decided to go for a diet. She suddenly asked me to join her journey down to the slim world. And I said, why not. It's been awhile since I stopped dieting. She shared with me numerous eating habits that will help us lose our weight. Apparently, she got herself a coach to help her lose her weight and all the things that the coach told her, she will tell me.

She viewed her coach as her inspiration since he lost around 70kg in just one year. Well, of course he went for a rigorous exercise regime. And, knowing her that she will not do any exercises, he told her that it's okay not to exercise, but the rate of losing the weight will be a bit slow. So, she said to me the same thing her coach said to her.

I admitted that I'm not very keen on exercising, so watching my meal is the best thing I could do to lose my weight. And so, I started back my diet plan on Sept 2013. It's already 13 days and I've lost 1kg... which is really hard to lose T_T  

Anyway, good luck ME!!

And so, it Turned into a Talkshow.

Let's skip the introduction.

The other day, I was with one of my classmates. We were at her room, studying for exam. Anyway, we only studied for 2 hours or so and after that we started to chat. Since I'm comfortable with her, we talked like we are good friends. Well, of course the most who did the talking was me. I talked how I was during my high school and all other stuffs.

Out of nowhere, she suddenly asked my love life. So I said, unfortunately, I don't have that someone. Well, she has. Then, the chatting suddenly turned into a talkshow. Haha, she interviewed me about my opinion on a certain matter regarding how I want my future husband to be.

I was thinking why she was interested in my opinion and later I found out that she was having an uncertainty regarding the person she wanted to be with for her life. She said that it's not like she wanted to marry now, but she was afraid what future has for her.

Well, for me, being worried brings you nothing. What you have to do is just do your best to find the love of your life that could bring you both to Jannah. That's all.