Widen Your Mind

This is only myself talking nonsense... Haha... Actually, no. Haha...

I read her wordpress every now and then and sometimes when I checked her blog, there are new posts she wrote in there and of course, I'm only concern about what she write about herbalife. Nothing than that. Not about her married life or whatsoever, how she totally bahagia and all that. I don't even care.

Last time I checked her blog, she wrote this phrase that made me think.

"If you ever want to lose your weight for the sake of being healthy, do call me, I'll do whatever I can to help you achieve that. But, if your reason taking herbalife is to show off your body, nk tayang2 pd org len, then, don't even bother calling me cause I'll not 'layan' you." *more or less she wrote it like this, but the meaning is still there.*

Okay, here's the thing. I agreed with you that you don't like people taking this thing just so they can show off their slim body later. And I respect your mentality that you'll only help those people who want to be healthy, nothing wrong with that.

But, the only thing I disagree is that, there are people who want to take this thing so that their life would be better. Better in the sense that they will not being insulted, mocked, or whatever bad words thrown at them. Maybe your interpretation of what other mean that made you inclined to think like that. No, you're wrong.

For instance, me. I take herbalife is not because I want to be healthy. Being healthy is a secondary reason for me. The important thing to me is that, I take this thing because I want to shut their fucking mouths. I want to show them, I'm not the old f*t girl anymore for them to bad mouthing about me. Maybe your perception is that, I want to show off my body later, but no. Open your eyes! Want to show off the body and want to shut someone mouth is two different things!

You need to widen your mind. You have to think beyond that. Every word has a meaning behind that. You can't just simply made your own meaning without learn their actual meaning first. So, if I were to meet you and I would say this, "My WHY is because I want to shut the mouths of those who have insulted me before." Maybe, or I should say, highly probable that you would think that my 'WHY' is because I want to show off my body, my slim body, afterward so that they will not kutuk2 me any longer.

Do you ever wonder that my actual reason is because I'm sick of their hurtful words? That my heart can't take it anymore? That every single day, every single moment they will stare at me like I was some sort of an extinct animal? Bad things they said to me? How hurt I was feeling? No? Then, don't talk like you know everything.

p/s: this was my interpretation of what she said, others may think differently as what I thought. no harm done, peace no war.